I used to think I was strong, that I can withstand any and every challenges that come my way but then I realized, these days, that statement is not always true. I always have the loudest laugh in the room and my mother would tell you that you'll know exactly when I'm in the house as it just all of the sudden becomes boisterous and lively.
That's why it always seem to catch people in surprise and ultimately in disbelief when I say, I am not alright, I am not feeling well and that I need some time and space to think... to just sit in silence and reflect. It's as if everyone else is allowed to be sick and have off-days but not me. Ah, the world is but fair, isn't it?
I'm sorry it's a bit of a sad Thursday post here at 20 York Street. I am off sick today and I'm glad I stayed home as work is becoming increasingly challenging. It's not always easy to put on a brave face and putting on a happy face despite all the struggles is exhausting and frankly, it seems a little dishonest. I have need to able to admit it to myself when things get too much, it happens to the best of us, doesn't it?
I wish you all a wonderful Thursday, it is only one day before the weekend after all and it's the 2nd day of December which means two things: we are a lot closer to Christmas and it is my beautiful aunt's birthday today...
Happy, Happy Birthday Tita Eirren!
with lots of love,
ML
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I hope you feel better soon.
Happy Birthday Tita Eirren.
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HUN! cheer up :).. I know exactly what you mean though.. and yes, I know that laugh and the constant smile that doesn't go away but you are allowed to have an off day hun so sit back, relax and watch some TV at home.. log off the computer, put the phone away and just take it easy. Love you! always here if you need me.. you know that
Feel better! It's ok to have a sad/sick day. I guess it's one of those days. Hope it gets better.
Aww no good! I know how you feel- there are just some days that you don't feel 100% and you can't quite put a finger on it. It's exhausting sharing your cheer and sparkle with the world- so take the day all to yourself! x's and o's! Feel better lady! :)
don't be so hard on yourself , this feeling will past and you will be yourself again . Take this time to relax we are all here for you =)
giiirllll ... u are SUPA fierce! im enjoying ure blog so much! keep it coming!
As Tabitha said, "We all have lives behind our blogs." I know how you feel and I hope that this time off gives you time to regroup. Get well soon.
you ARE allowed to be sick and have off days, of course! everyone is :)
I hope you get to feeling better soon! And I hope the work situation gets better quickly too! And I really want to thank you for the wonderful comments you've left on my blog as well! :)
I can totally relate to how you're feeling! Hang in there and think positive! You can do it!! Take care and sending you lots of hugs! xoxooxo
Have a relaxing day,sweetie and sometimes we all need a bit of rest! Sending you hugs
Muah
Happy Birthday to your aunt and take the time you need XOXO
I definitely know what you mean: last night my fiancé and I were talking, and I went from laughing and smiling to crying my eyes out. Today, I'm giving myself a "Mental Health" day.
beautiful photo! i love ur hair :)
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I am sending a boatload of good thoughts and wishes - it takes so much energy to deal with challenges from the workplace, life, etc (I esp. hear ya on the workplace bit, given I seem to be on a workplace challenge week here) - just give yourself the space and time you need. And don't hesitate to lean on others!
Beautiful photo of you! I hear ya- I took a sickie yesterday (half legitimate seasonal cold & half stressed out and needing zen time!)
Don't worry- there will be lots of laughter at our get-together next week! Take it easy- remember to give yourself me time!
xo Emily
hope you feel better soon!!
I hope you're feeling better soon! Sometimes dreary winter weather can get the best of us :)
I hope you feel better! I'm sure you deserve every bit of peace and rest you have. :)
Sometimes you just need to breathe, and take time for yourself. I hope you feel better soon, but remember to take care of yourself.
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Get well soon and make sure you give yourself some time. Everyone is entitled to that.
I'm sorry you're blue. Carve time out to relax and do whatever makes you happy. Your mood will improve in a little time. And don't forget we all love you!
i hope you'll be okay dear. *HUGS
I'm sorry you are having an off day. Hope you're feeling better tomorrow!
Aww I hope you feel better soon! Take care.
AAAWWW i hope you feeling better, I to feeling the same way yesterday!! but I guess laying in the sofa drinking hot chocolate actually make me feel a little bit better (maybe you can drink some hot tea since you are sick?) then realizing its xmas time, it light up my mood a little bit
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thanks for being so candid with us. sorry to hear you're not feeling well and also going through struggles. it's how we cope during times like this that make us stronger. wishing you sunny days ahead :)
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Hey ML, I'm so sorry you're having a rough time. Taking time off is probably a good thing -- a time for rejuvenation and to reconnect with the things that you love and make you happy. Love you and hope things get better :) xoxox J
i've been MIA but i'm glad i popped by for this! i hope you are feeling a bit more on the up and up, and refresh this weekend!
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Sorry you're feeling down. Maybe a nice, long snowed-in weekend will do the trick. Or, get a puppy! Do you have a puppy? If not, get a puppy. It might help! (Can you tell I wish, very desperately, that I had a puppy?)
I know what you mean. Even strength needs a day's rest and time to recuperate. Blogging is half the therapy in itself. Right? :)
Awww babe, I hope you get better soon. I absolutely understand: we all do need time off when we don´t feel good, doesn´t matter for which reason...
I wish you a beautiful relaxing weekend!! Get some warm socks and big cup of tea and up to bed!!
xxx
-M-
Dear girl, I hope that you're feeling better. Please take care of yourself and of course let us know if we can do anything.
xo Josie
I hope you feel better soon and I hope things at work straighten out. I do know how you feel. I'm very, very outgoing and loud and just like to have fun. BUT I'm also an only child and sometimes, as much as I love a crowd, I need to be by myself. I need some me time to just process everything. Don't feel like you need to apologize for that time. Everyone needs time to just be or to cry or to have a little pity party. I'm convinced it makes you stronger afterwards!
I love the look from the other day with the coat with the fur and the jeans and the black boots. YOu rocked that look and I want to copy it!! I just need the coat!
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BABE! Oh I SO hear ya!! I think this is especially common for those of us who are HIGH Achievers! WE place high expectations on ourselves, higher than the expectations others place on this. I am in the exact same boat (perhaps we row around together :) and just took a few days off from work to recharge. The trick is to take time for your own sanity and well being BEFORE you hit the wall.. not always easy to do ( I have done it many many times!!)
So glad you are taking some time for yourself and no you dont sound depressed, you sound HUMAN and thats what so great about you is that you share your humanity on your blog, not just trying to be all fancy and perfect. You are real. Thanks for being that. Thats what makes the difference in the world!!! You are awesome!! xoxo sending a big ol Canadian hug your way girlfriend and hope you have a relaxing and peaceful weekend xxooo j
I hear you!! It's especially tough to keep a positive attitue in blog world, when things are not always great at home or at work. But hang in there! Hopefully, the worst of it has passed :) Have a better weekend!
Hey BABE.. guess what, I am coming to Ottawa in March for work. I think the 2nd week.. dates to be confirmed but for sure lets meet!!!! make sure your man is ready to do a duo photo shoot of us..LOL Ottawa--- LOOK OUT!!! xxo J
This is such a beautiful and heartfelt post, but the words make me sad. I'm sorry you're feeling so dreary this week. As you know, I know how that feels.
...and it's weird, it's sort of like blogger is trying to tell us something by having us come across each other. It seems we are in the same place and yet despite the sadness, we have such hope for the future. :)
I really hope you feel happier, starting with this weekend. A girl as pretty as you should have no reason to look so sad!
PS. I'm praying for you too. xoxo
You have to embrace the bad before you can heal and become balanced again.
I appreciate the honesty of this post. Feel better soon!
x
I resonate deeply with those words. . when you're strong you're not supposed to be weak. . it's as though it's not allowed or defies gravity.
But one thing I have learned is, in your vulnerability and your acknowledgment of it, do you become even stronger :)
Hope you're feeling better
i know you will fight through this ML! you're strong and will come back from this time stronger than ever. i do agree that we do need to step back from time to time and reflect on things. it's how we grow and learn from our experiences.
wishing you the best, ML!!
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Aww hope all the sweet comments you're getting and the day off help heal your woes! I know how you feel. I always get surprised when someone tells me I'm so "bubbly" or "miss perfect" when all I feel is anything but. Everyone is human and we all need a break sometimes!
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cheer up girl!
Get better soon.. sending lots of love to ya..!
Happy Birthday Tita Eirren
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I have twin birthdays with your aunt! Definitely some time off should re-energize you, sending you your present soon, promise love!!
Hope you're feeling better, in body and in spirit!
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Stay strong, girl! We can't always feel 100% all the time and it is OK to admit when you need help - life always works itself out. Be your usual fantastic self - and I hope you feel better!
Hey Love,
Thank you so much for your sweet comments! I really do look forward to them everyday! i hope you enjoyed your day off yesterday and had some good time off to think and reflect and just sit! Everyone deserves it EVEN and ESP you!!!
You and your blog are such an inspiration!!
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Oh dear, I hope everything gets better soon! I know exactly what you mean, I'm always the life of the room (when I know the people that are in it...otherwise I'm shy) so people know when I'm upset, but they are still like "What?..."
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I hope you feel better soon, dear. Take lots of good rest and don't worry about other people. They just want to see you back to your happy bubbly self because they care about you. :)
Hope you feel better girl! We all need space and time sometimes!
xx
Kaylee
Good for you for taking time off for yourself. Hope you're feeling better this weekend and things at work go smoother for you ;)
I hope you are starting to feel better! I understand how you are feeling right now. I am also the type of person who is always smiling and laughing, so when I am suddenly not feeling well sometimes it feels like people don't believe me or something.... Well, we can have bad days too! Glad that you took the time off for yourself to relax and feel better. You deserve it.
I hope you feel better and hopefully the rest will do you good. Looking forward to seeing you back to your warm and bubbly self.
Peace & Blessings
I hope the time off gave you a renewed spirit! I am a therapist and I listen to some of the most horrific stories all day long. I somehow am so closed and quiet about my own pain. Its so weird, but we are similar. No one ever knows or expects me to have a BAD day. I am the vessel for others to deposit woes and tales of despair. So, I empathize with you greatly! Allow yourself to recharge and draw on your strength to move through adversity with GRACE!
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Oh my gosh, ate! I hope you feel better. I know exactly what you mean about needing some space and alone time to reflect about life. When I had my down time, I usually just let it all out by crying. Somehow, crying cleanses my soul and I feel a lot better.
Whatever it is that you are going through, ate, you will overcome it. I believe that you just need time to unwind and then before you know it, you are back with that fighting spirit! :)
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Many, many huggles to you, ML-love.
I had a shit weekend. I actually looked forward to the work week.
We get by. And then happy days come again.
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